I've neglected this for far too long and I really regret doing so.
I don't care if nobody reads this. I don't care if I never become famous for my thoughts.
Simply because they are my thoughts, not anything vitally important to life or survival.
But this new experience in life has already been so hectic.
I still don't know what to do with myself half the time. I constantly find myself fighting the urge to go back home, to where I'm comfortable and at peace.
I. hate. this. change.
With the passion of a thousand suns. I hate how people have changed, how I've changed,
how the people are, how I'm not surrounded by my friends, how I'm not working, the stress,
the work, the teachers. Maybe I'll get over it. Or not. We'll see.
I do like having the independence, but it also comes with it's downsides and it's definitely taking a lot of getting used to for me.
By the way I like to randomly skip lines for no apparent reason at
all.
Deal with it.
I said it. Deal.
On that note, I've had a lot of fun at college so far, but it's just so insanely different,
this completely different world. So foreign. Change is definitely inevitable, but it's something
that not all of us accept so willingly but rather begrudgingly cope with simply because there is no other option for us to choose. And so I'm adjusting, and changing, hopefully into a mature, hard working adult. I just don't want to waste 4 years and $80,000 dollars for nothing. For a piece of paper that'll end up meaning nothing if I don't do something with it.
I think I'm actually terrified. This drastic leap in my life and its vast potential to lead me to somewhere where I have no clue who is who or what is what. But at the same time it offers me so many new great opportunities that I can't just pass it up without at least checking it out. We'll see how this goes and I'll actually try to keep y'all posted.
